“Go, gather together all the Jews who are in Susa, and fast
for me. Do not eat or drink for three days, night or day. I and my
attendants will fast as you do. When this is done, I will go to the
king, even though it is against the law. And if I perish, I perish.” Esther 4:16
Esther was preparing to go before the king and ask to save the Jews. There was a good chance that she was going to die. It was not ok to just walk into the king's throne room and make a request. In fact, when Esther was preparing to do this; it had been 30 days since the last time she spent time with the king. Things were not looking good. The scale was leaning to the parish side. One starts to wonder was God aware of what He was asking of Esther. I can assure that God is more aware of what He is asking of Esther than she was aware.
You can apply this to your life. Whatever God is asking of you to do. Whatever step of faith God is asking you to take. He is more aware of what is required to complete the task than you are. There are things you should be worried and concerned about that aren't even on your radar. God sees them. He's lucky, He gets to see the whole picture. He knows what it will cost to take that step. On the other hand, He knows the glory He will receive once you've stepped out. He is aware of the growth and the stronger your faith will be after you have stepped out. He knows the struggle you will face but He knows the reward.
So what are you struggling with? What is God asking you to do? He is trying to lead me down the path of writing and speaking His truth and love into women's lives, but I keep stumbling. I take steps and only to realize what He is asking of me and then stepping back and stopping. Sometimes I sit and wonder if He really is aware of what He is asking for. I wonder if He is aware that He is asking someone who struggles with spelling and grammar to write. I wonder if He is aware that I use to turn as white as sheet when presenting in college to get up and speak. Oh but He knows the times when I have been faithful and how they have change lives. He knows who eyes who have come across my blog and the encouragement it did. He also knows the impact my testimony had on those women that came to Regenerate Her that night. He is aware of it all. He also has yet to decided I am not going to do what He has called me to do and take away the gifts. At times, I feel like I am wasting them because I am not using them.
What is God asking you to do? Starting or leaving a ministry. Moving and doing something you have never done. Going on a mission trip. Not sure God is aware of what He is asking. Leave the comfort zone is hard. Have you tried talking with Him about it. He'll tell you, "Dear one, I know the struggle, but I also knew the other side and the glory come." Trust Him.
